why do i keep counting?

counting? i'm counting what?money?no job no money. so,what do i keep counting?i'm counting day. day after day, i'm still counting. counting with no jobs, no future. when do i will get a job. its me don't want to work or the job itself doesn't have the desire for me. let's say, the job doesn't want me, but there's a offer for me. but myself don't want to accept it.why?that's why i keep counting.